resolution (n.) a firm decision to do or not to do something.
Decisions have never been easy for me to make. Whether it be choosing cookies and cream or mint chocolate chip, or if I want my hair to be curly or straight, I never seem to be sure of anything, Although those problems may seem diminutive, my lack of decision-making has also translated into which college is right for me, what I should study, where I should move when I graduate, who I should love, and the everyday "What do you really want, Bee?"
However, I am sure of one thing: this life changes quickly and even if you choose one thing, life can choose another thing for you. That's why, this new year, I have decided not to make a vow to do or not to do something, but instead embrace change and let life happen.
2015 brought a lot of changes for me: strengthening friendships with people my senior year of college I barely knew freshman year, then graduating college, leaving all the people that I held so close, moving back to Maryland, then moving to New York, starting my career as an editor, finding out that I still like clubbing (mainly for the dancing), celebrating a 2-year anniversary with my boyfriend, vacationing in Costa Rica, developing friendships while keeping the old ones, and learning a little more about what is changing and what I cannot change about myself.
2016 has already begun and I am about to start a NEW job, spend my first winter in NYC, and student loans have kicked in, yet I just made a huge investment toward my 200-hour yoga certification that will start in February. It's hard to believe this is just the beginning.
However, looking forward, it would be silly for me to make a resolution. Yes, I have goals (always!) and things that I would like to change but making a firm decision to stop doing something or turn in the opposite direction and never look back just doesn't make sense for me at this point in time. I guess my past "lack-of success" with resolutions has proven that there is no need to make a decision to change everything, but instead work with what I have and focus inward. I plan to embrace the changes that this year has to offer and make the most of the struggles, excitement, accomplishments, and challenges I will face.
Until my next thought,